Winding Down and Winding Up

There is no joy in closing this chapter of my life.  But one has to make certain decisions with regard to mental competency and simple physical ability.  I think that many people including myself avoid making decisions and then fate makes the decision for us.  So I hope I have made this decision to move to Ormond Beach and place myself in the care of my son Michael soon enough to avoid the interfering of fate. 

Certainly feel welcome here with Michael.  He helped me put up pictures today, and I feel at home.  I have been to three AA meetings at the early ducks group  and have felt welcomed there as well.   We have been to the beach twice see the sunrise.  Some folks in my AA group took me to breakfast so I am getting to know them.   I have not decided whether to write again but will certainly be watching Gator basketball.   I am planning on resuming my reading daily and have begun dig into Peter Breggin's recent book; Guilt  Shame and Anxiety.  This is a treatise on what  Breggin calls negative  legacy emotions.   Although one reader  calls this a new theory it was well outlined many decades ago in the AA literature.   But I consider it well worth reading.   I would like everyone to know that the Power of the Double Circle profited by $22.38  according to Amazon. (paid ad)

 Over the next few months I will try to speak to the paradoxical relationship between depression and sadness.  This will be a firsthand account as it is been at first very depressing to think of leaving Gainesville but now I find that sadness does began to take its place in my emotions and depression does not seem to hold much water.